No more Self-Pity

Have you ever wondered if changing your life is even possible? That’s how I feel. I want to have a healthy baby, and I want to be a healthy mom. Is it possible?

 

Yes! so why won’t I do what it takes? I take prenatals, but that’s it. I need to care more about myself, my body, and my nutrition. WIC buys fruits and veggies, so why don’t I shut up and eat them?

 

Because I’m not motivated! I don’t work 40 hours a week anymore, more like 20, so why don’t I shut up and go on a walk some days? My friends go to a gym, I could easily tag along and hop on a treadmill. I can work out, I will know if I am working too hard for the peanut!

 

I can get on a normal sleep schedule. I can get my stuff done. I’m so sick of procrastinating. This has to change.

 

I am so upset with my…laziness it comes out in how I treat people, so this has to change..

 

It will change.

 

I will change.

So, I’ve been reading again.

This time it was:

The book was over-all amazing. I read it in under 24 hours, which is something I haven’t done in a long time. It felt good to be honest.

 

We had clinicals today, which were bearable. We are working on getting things marked off, and today I got bathing and shaving. Shaving scares the eff out of me, to be honest.

 

Goal for tomorrow: Get up at 7am. As long as I’m up by 9 I’ll be happy. We’ll see. I am hoping to stop resetting the alarm, but waking up early sucks (:.